Tuesday, January 30, 2007

What about you?

Do you ever worry about anything? Are you ever afraid of anything? How does it affect you? Does it change who you are? I was made to realize that my fears change me - they make me a person that I don't want to be - that I am embarrassed to be. The person that others see is not who I really am. I come across as loud and overbearing. I become obnoxious - like I need to prove myself. The funny thing is I am scared and insecure. I am afraid to be around those who don't know me. Those who know me tell me I am kind, loving and giving. But others don't get to see that because of my fears. Tell me? Do you have any fears? What are they

Whether you think you can or whether you think you can't, you are right. Henry Ford

10 comments:

Ki Kruk said...

Our own insecurties can manifest and project in so many different ways! I remember you telling me once that I come across as very secure and confident - when that couldn't be farther from the truth! LOL! I'm sure there are some that interpret my actions as loud and overbearing as well - completely a nervous reaction. I hate to be in large groups or around people that I know don't particularly like me. I know that we can never get along with everyone but it has always been something that has bothered me if I discover someone dislikes me. Hurts my soul somehow, although I know I shouldn't let it. Can't help it, it's who I am.
So yes, I have fears - fears of not being liked or not fitting in. Unrealistic fears are part of my OCD as well - consistent worrying or fixating on a particular fear that almost drives me crazy - but I have pills for that now - LOL!!!
A very thought provoking entry Mona - thankyou! We are very much alike you and I!! Us redheads gotta stick together!

Anonymous said...

I have more fears than I have room to type here, or time to tell!! And I agree, that they do completely change you, and not for the better. I am happy to say that as I am getting older, many of my fears have disappeared and I have become a much nicer person to be around. That is something I need to continue to work on.

Camen

Anonymous said...

i use to feel the same way with my fosters parents...was acting like someone i wasnt justto have them like me,,,which made we worse and get anxiety attacks. In recent actvities on MB and Blogs...i have learned that i would rather be hated for who i am then to be loved for who i am not!

Big hugs girl! I love you!

Tammy Brownlee

Laura said...

Hey Mona, first of all, yay you for putting it out there. A lot of people wouldn't admit it so publically. I really admire that. Secondly, heck ya, I have fears. As I've gotten older, I would like to think they aren't as big of a deal and that I am 'outgrowing' them, but they are still there on some level. It's not letting them interfere with my life that is more of a struggle that the actual fears themselves.

Anam_Kihaku said...

**hugs** see you are not alone. thats why your friends love you - cos they know you. I have fears. i was wake up and say its ok to be afraid. just go and do it anyways. fear is best friends witht he negative what if.

how about 'what if it was/is wonderful?' is that a better thing to ask...

jessi said...

I think everyone has their own demons that project themselves in ways we are not so fond of and wish we could change, but really have no control over them! I feel very insecure about new situations...like scrapfest(that was a big thing for me!!!)I couldn't go alone...had to have a good friend by side!! I also have a hard time withsituations like taking a class or going to the gym...if I don't go with someoone or know someone there...I don't go!!! some days I feel like it totally holds me back...so like anam said...you're not alone with your fears...and when I met you at scrapfest I did not see that person you said you become!!! You're pretty cool!!! have a great weekend!!!

Renee said...

fears, yes... i have them but i try to not think about it. sometimes i worry about what others are going to think about me. something i inherited from my mom. i worry sometimes what people say about me behind my back, especially since i live in the same town as i grew up in. i was the tall skinny girl in school and now i am the tall heavier set girl. i know people say "guess who i saw? she is fat now!" people say those things about others to me so.... i don't let it get me down. i am happy and if people want to gossip, let them.

Stacy said...

i am with jessi on this to when i met you at scrapfesti thought there is something who likes to have fun but i knew deep down you are very quiet person to i could see it in your eyes tee heee!!

Jayme said...

Oh yah! But I've come to understand that I am a work in progress and am more forgiving of myself... and others. Fears hold me back lots... but also give that push to grow and change.

Just Rhonda said...

Yes Yes Yes. I have spent much of my life afraid to try. i am scared of failing. That is one of my biggest problems. It holds me back from so much. And yet I am sad that I don't achieve things that others do. I back myself into that corner all the time. I have many others. And I think it is a life long tihng to try and change those fears. To grow. That is what we are trying to do here. Get better.