Monday, July 03, 2006

What a LOOOOONG night!!!

This turned out to be one of the longest evenings of my life. Kiana decided to FREAK OUT on me tonite. She slapped me, kicked me, bit me, pulled my hair and basically beat the crap out of me in the course of about 20 minutes. The psychiatrist thought that being out of school and being scheduled at home would improve her behaviour with the ADHD but its not working. For the last week or so I have been doing some research and I am beginning to think that Kiana may actually have been misdiagnosed. I presently have a call in to the psychiatrist and I am hoping to see if we can have her tested for Bi-Polar Disorder. Turns out that children with Bi-Polar disorder are often misdiagnosed as ADHD children and I am starting to wonder if it isn't true. We have to do something because I am afraid to hug and kiss my child for fear of being hurt. I went to give her a hug and kiss at bedtime and she grabbed my hair and pulled while biting on my shoulder. Something is DEFINITELY wrong. Neither Chris nor I know what set her off. She was happy about 20 minutes earlier and then this. She is soooo terribly remorseful after and she asked me tonite if we could help her. As she was sobbing in my lap she said "Mommy, can the doctor make me better?" She wants help and doesn't know whats wrong with her. Well, I am going to spend some time praying and reading and finding out where to turn and what to do next. I am not sure whats going to happen, but it can't get much worse than this. I am feeling like a failure as a parent because I can't help my daughter and I can't help her to feel better. Well, tomorrow is another day!

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. Dig and Dig deeper until you are completely satisfied with the diagnoses. doctors are not always right and usually a parents instinct is! My son is OCD so I have a little indication of what your feeling. Hope tommorrow is a better day for you.

Lori

Anam said...

**hugs** i hope you find the correct diagnosis soon - my hubby has bi-poar and can go from bright to black in a sec (luckly he is too introvert to lash out but the coldness and invisability can hurt) **hugs**

Heather M. said...

Oh my gosh, hugs to you, Mona!!! I wish I knew what to say...

Cate said...

Hugs Mona! I'm sure once you ask the doctor for more help he'll help you! At least you are making sure you get the diagnosis you feel is right!

I'm so glad you are blogging! I'll have to make sure I read it regularly!

Sue said...

Big hugs, Mona - what a difficult time for you! I agree with Lori - keep pestering the doctors until you are satified. Mother's instinct has been around forever!

I hope this is resolved soon and you can have some peace in your daughter's (and your) life soon!

Ki Kruk said...

Oh Mona! I can't imagine what it is your family is going through. I had no idea this was going on - meanwhile you are phoning and checking up on me! Hugs my friend - you're a gem! Stay strong!

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