Monday, July 03, 2006
What a LOOOOONG night!!!
This turned out to be one of the longest evenings of my life. Kiana decided to FREAK OUT on me tonite. She slapped me, kicked me, bit me, pulled my hair and basically beat the crap out of me in the course of about 20 minutes. The psychiatrist thought that being out of school and being scheduled at home would improve her behaviour with the ADHD but its not working. For the last week or so I have been doing some research and I am beginning to think that Kiana may actually have been misdiagnosed. I presently have a call in to the psychiatrist and I am hoping to see if we can have her tested for Bi-Polar Disorder. Turns out that children with Bi-Polar disorder are often misdiagnosed as ADHD children and I am starting to wonder if it isn't true. We have to do something because I am afraid to hug and kiss my child for fear of being hurt. I went to give her a hug and kiss at bedtime and she grabbed my hair and pulled while biting on my shoulder. Something is DEFINITELY wrong. Neither Chris nor I know what set her off. She was happy about 20 minutes earlier and then this. She is soooo terribly remorseful after and she asked me tonite if we could help her. As she was sobbing in my lap she said "Mommy, can the doctor make me better?" She wants help and doesn't know whats wrong with her. Well, I am going to spend some time praying and reading and finding out where to turn and what to do next. I am not sure whats going to happen, but it can't get much worse than this. I am feeling like a failure as a parent because I can't help my daughter and I can't help her to feel better. Well, tomorrow is another day!